Doppelgängers and Dreams

Selected quotes(from others) that inspired this post:

"We are our own worst enemy"

"Take the log out of your own eye before you try to remove the sliver from your neighbor's eye."

"It is not the mountain we conquer but ourselves"

“Be your own worst critic. When things go wrong it's tempting to shift the blame. Don't.
Accept responsibility. People will appreciate it, and you will find out what you're capable of.” 

"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans"

"Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle."

I am a Taurus. I'm passionate and sympathetic but stubborn. My emotions take me for a ride all the time. I was also born close to the cusp of Gemini and I'm starting to see it in myself. This inner dual is apparent. Every day I seek answers and like or not, initially pass judgements. But I am conscious and before I speak out(mostly) I ask myself why I feel this way. I see everyone as mirrors and when I experience something that rubs me the wrong way I instinctively want to point the finger. When you're pointing your finger at a mirror the "problem" is crystal clear.I am grateful that I'm at least aware of this but still eager to learn how to use that in a constructive way. Listening to and considering different opinions and philosophies is necessary for our own self-growth. It may not be comfortable or easy, but in the end it let's us know more about ourselves. I want to know more about the world so I can learn more about myself and why I do certain things that are considered bad habits, in turn I can empathize with other people I normally would have no understanding of.

There is a great change happening around me and sometimes I lose myself in the process. The biggest challenge of late is finding a constructive way to balance my relationship, my family and my career plans, while being present. The future is always on my mind and it's been brought to my attention that it's so bad that I am not present with my current company. The apprehension of what may come is so crippling that I shut down. I must change this. I must not let my life and my loved ones suffer because I was too busy worrying about the possibility of something going awry. So, I will end this post and cease the day with the one's I love...won't you join me?